I feel like explaining stuff.
About the changes I spoke of in my last post.
I'm not deliberately changing, I don't mean to change, nor do I feel any need to. It just happens.
I believe it happens to everyone all the time.
And the changes aren't any big at all. No one notices any differences except for me. The changes are mainly inside my mind. Like, I change my mind on subjects and my taste in stuffs. There's no drastic make-over, that's not what I mean.
Maybe it was wrong to say I get urges to decide who I am. It's more like I have to discover who I am. Because the routines I've gotten used to doesn't match the person I've changed into. You see?
It's like when people write new year resolutions. Only I suddenly feel like "writing new year resolutions" at random times during the year. I get an urge to clean up my mess and get my act together sort of. That's what I meant.
And we all change.
Me for instant, my latest changes include:
- getting gradually less allergic to the color pink.
- admitting to myself that I'm not so fond of spirit anymore. I like wine. Red wine.
- slowly comming to terms with my stomach and it's new non-tolerance for white wine.
- discovering that I can now use high-heeled shoes (as long as it's 7cm tops) and sometimes even prefer it.
And so on.
Tiny trivial stuff like that.
No need to worry, I wont suddenly convert to Jehovah's Witnesses or turn green and develop superpowers. No plastic surgery. No change of personality.
I'll just use high-heels more and avoid drinking too much white wine.
["Truth is now acceptable" - Planetary (GO!) by My Chemical Romance.
I can't get enough of this song atm. <3 And the best line is of course "Fame is now injectable" but that didn't match my post too well. Link]
Awwwww, but superpowers would've been sooo cool! :P
SvarSlettI'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy? :P
SvarSlettI like wine. Red wine. Too.
And I'm getting gradually less allergic to orange.
You're unbelievable,
so unbelievable, you ruin everything, you better go home. ;)
I wrote this long, nice answer, and the IE deleted it. Meh.
SvarSlettBut it was about you not changing into someone new, but becoming more yourself. A new yourself, and that is very healthy. And about I never having seen myself as growing UP, only growing. Evolving if you will.
I wrote a bit about how I have changed (away from pink for instance), and how red wine is infinitely healthier than spirits anyhow, way more tasty and besides good for the blood flow. Besides, in the words of Nemi (translated by me): "WHITE wine!!!??? I am not an effing bridesmaid, I want RED!!!" XD
I like you. I liked the "old" you and I like the "new" you. I don't see you as changed, I see you as evolved. The cocoon is cracking, showing a glittering new Kio emerging, as it will time and time again. Each one more beautiful than the last. Sparkling in the sun, and loved by us all.
And I wrote that as long as YOU like who you are then pish-posh on everyone else.
And I like you anyhow. *big hugs*