Ambitions for the New Year.

When I was younger I never saw the point in these, but nowadays I always seem to have them.

1. I know for a fact that I won't keep to this (wow, what a great optimistic way to start), but I want to TRY and plan my meals every day. I am already sorta good at that, but there are days when I just don't bother. And it works like this: Schooldays I have lunch boxes and (almost) every day my meals are thought through and tasty/healthy, but on days with no school everything just meh and I wind up not eating properly, sometimes not eating at all before dinner. I want to take control of my eating habits. I know, I have observed, that when I eat properly throughout the day EVERYTHING works so much better.

2. I want to draw more. This appears to always be a part of my New Year resolutions, and I always fail to fulfill it. But I love drawing; I can't understand why I forget to do it. I should knit more too.

3. I'll try to be there for my friends and boyfriend more. I tend to keep to myself, which is how I am, I need my space, but I think I do it a little bit too much. For the sake of my friendships that I really don't want to lose, I'll try to keep more in touch with everyone.

Thank you all for a wonderful new years party! I had a lovely time. And I'm much better, if it keeps up like this I'll actually be attending school pretty soon.

I hope 2011 will be a good year for everyone. Happy new year!

I'm sick of this.

I'm coming to believe that, at least in my case (for I know a disease can be different for each individual), the whooping cough is actually a disguised and involuntary version of bulimia.

It's pretty tiresome really.

But I still had a great Christmas though. Thank you for wonderful gifts, everyone!

Critical hit!

Take that evil bacterias!

I got an Antibacterial at the Emergency Department.

It's weird though, 'cause they took the exact same tests as my doctor did yesterday, but this time they were positive. And the doctor there heard me coughing and plainly stated that "that sort of cough needs antibacterial".

I'm so happy.

I don't want a bacterial infection. not at all. But I'd rather have that than some stupid viruses. Bacteria I can kill. This kind of infection there's a solution to.

I feel better already.

So.

I was hoping the doctor would find some bacteria that I could just kill with some penicillin, laugh at, and then be done with.
But no.
bacteria-test negative.

But I've got something that'll help me cough up the nasty stuff at day and then something that'll calm my coughing at night. And then we'll just have to wait and see...

Maybe I'll be able to sleep now with the anti-coughing-mixture-thing. Sleep and BREATH.
I'm tired of waking up choking and gasping for breath because everything is closed.

You would think that after the twentieth or so time you wouldn't be that scared anymore. I always get air in the end. But no, I panic every single time. It's terrifying.