Setting fire to our insides for fun

Sometimes (or actually most times) I write elaborate blogposts and then at last minute it feels wrong to post them.
I wrote three during this winter/spring without daring posting them, but for some reason it feels ok now, when some time has passed.
I don't know what I'm scared of, but that's just how it is.
But I am trying to clean up this mess that is me, and I will post those blogs.

I am going away on holiday for four weeks. (madness. four whole weeks. I'll be dead tired when I return.)
So I thought I would schedule said posts to appear on the sundays when I'm away.
When I return I promise to write (and publish!) a post about southern Germany and my adventures there. (we'll be taking a quick quick stop in France too, I'm really quite extatic about that part.)

I'm also working on a post about my absolute favourite cities around the world, inspired by my trip to Turku this spring, but it's not finished yet.


Oh, and here are some wonderful music. Daughter really makes the most beautiful music I know of right now. I love the lyrics. And I love how the sound builds up with the guitars and the drums. It's so simple and yet so massive. (and yes, it's the one from the Widerø-commercial).

A reflection. (on my socializing capasity)

I haven't blogged in ages.
But I have done some thinking. (And I've been through my annual autumn-depression, during which blogging feels hard and redundant.)

Here's the thinking I've done:
I kind of want this blog to be filled with... thoughts. You know like my "If you garden them and water them"-post or the post about synesthesia. And filled with events like when I went to Edinburgh and such.

These thoughts and events doesn't happen every day so there's gonna be gaps between posts.
I feel that for trivialities (you know like pictures of my food and what TV-show I'm watching) platforms like tumblr, twitter and facebook are more fitting.

I wont start using my facebook.
This may sound as if I'm opposed to facebook as a concept, but I'm not, I'll try to explain:
I am somewhat weird when it comes to socializing. I can only handle it in limited doses and in certain forms.
I am capable of pushing myself out of this comfort zone, but if I do this for an extended period of time, I collapse, I black out, I freeze. And then we get weeks where I isolate myself, to the distress of friends sending me texts I never reply to, until I feel fit to go out and socialize again.
Facebook, for some reason, makes me feel uncomfortable and have this paralyzing effect on me.
I don't know why. There's something about the way it works.

It's like.
With twitter or tumblr or this blog it feels like I'm hanging my thought up on a billboard and whoever is interested can come and read it.
With facebook it feels like I'm standing in front of my new class, wearing only a bathing suit.

It's pretty irrational, I know.

I'm not comfortable in a bathing suit.



BUT I have been hanging around tumblr lately, and found I quite like it there.
So (and finally I get to the point) for those people sick of the gaps between my composed thought-posts, who just want to know how I am doing, what I had for dinner and what TV-show I'm watching... I made a tumblr:

meanwhileinreallife.tumblr.com

where I will share trivialities and probably reblog silly pictures of cats.

WIPs

This is sort of an announcement for everyone wanting to see my crafting projects in progress.
I usually like to show off my pieces when they're finished, but since people have been asking to see my progress I have made a wip-page at my crafting blog, collecting all my unfinished projects.

You'll find it here.

(And did you know I have a crafting blog? fruitsofmymagic.blogspot.no)

:)

Should I comment on the new layout?

(posting this didn't even cross my mind untill I read E2's comment...)

I just felt like changing it.
I was growing tired of the old one and even though I liked it, I always felt that the old layout was a bit scrambled.

This isn't really a new-new layout though. It's a color-scheme and background image I once made for my imvu profile back when I was active over there.

(Yes, I got an account at imvu.com. I know it's a stupid money-consuming site which washes away your brain and basicly encourages cybersex. But if you look past that; It's paper-dolls/dress-up for grown-ups. And if you're interested in clothing and styling and hair; it's really addicting).

I was always very happy about that profile-page. I still feel that these colors and this background, all though it's kinda pale and cold, suits me.

You, sir, how 'bout a shave?

And after that little epiphany described in my last post I made this blog offical.
Hi all, I made myself a blogspot! Yay me!

._.

I'll post on LJ some day too... And then we'll see what will happen to my journals over there.
I wont delete them though. And it would be sad to kill the adventure-journal such short time after it's birth... ...to be continued~

Why so serious? :]

I just realized that once I made this blog that nobody knows about yet I could just play around with it without careing what people would think if they saw it.
And when I'm not taking my blog that serious it gets much more fun.
I even costumized the layout kinda suddenly and easily.

(I must admit that the whole layout-costumize-system here at blogspot is easier to understand than at LJ... =.O )

In conclusion:
I should start blogging more spontaneously without giving it too much thought. I take my old blogs way too serious.

Maybe a brand new blog-start would be good?

I wont even bother to check my spelling this time. My typos wont kill anyone...

Is the grass greener over here?

Not only are my friends joining blogspot, they're abandoning their LJ's...
May it be that I too should move over here? For real?
Hmm.

I can't say I dislike this place thou. Maybe it's the right thing to do...?

So this is blogspot...

Well...

So many of my friends were getting a blogspot so I felt like joining.

Seeing as I already have two livejournals I really have no idea what I'll use this one for...

But we'll see.



I'm sure it will come in handy some way or another o.-